Disappointment :(

Well today I found out that I did not get the in office job that I was hoping for. This means more nights away from my husband and the Kids (our dogs Butch & Carly). I was, to say the least, disappointed; however, I was happy for the person who got the job. He has a one year old and will now get to spend some time at home watching him grow up.

This set back prompted me to updated my resume and put it out on some online job hunting sites. Who knows if it will work but I had to take a shot. It is becoming increasingly clear that I am no longer happy traveling the way I do for work. And now it appears that my last shot at coming off the road for a few years is gone.

It sounds pathetic but I cried after I found out I didn't get the in office job. It was at that moment that I realized how unhappy I have become with my job. I don't even know when it happened, but it did. I used to love this job. I guess it is a sign of changing times for me. I am now focused on starting a family with my husband and traveling is not ideal for that.

I used to think I didn't want kids but now that I have this wonderful man I want several kids with him. That is the thought that crosses my mind daily, which means this job (that used to be a career for me) is no longer as important as I thought.

Well now I move on to a new phase of life. Trying to decide what type of new career I want. If I even want a career at all with kids. Wish me luck and pray that I find something to make all of us happy!