I know my last few posts have made it seem like I am down in the dumps, which I have been. But today I just got a reality check that punched me in the gut. Here I am complaining about having a job, albeit not my favorite at times, but I have a job and there are several others out there who don't. I am lucky and I now know it.
What got me thinking about all of this is I just heard from a good friend who has fallen on hard times. The problems they are facing make feel ashamed I even posted about disappointment and dislike of my job. An eye opeinging event just happened to me!
I am thankful for all that I have and all that God has given me. I just wanted to let all of you know that. I am especially thankful for the wonderful people in my life that I call friends. You are all great!
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Monday, February 09, 2009
Disappointment :(
Well today I found out that I did not get the in office job that I was hoping for. This means more nights away from my husband and the Kids (our dogs Butch & Carly). I was, to say the least, disappointed; however, I was happy for the person who got the job. He has a one year old and will now get to spend some time at home watching him grow up.
This set back prompted me to updated my resume and put it out on some online job hunting sites. Who knows if it will work but I had to take a shot. It is becoming increasingly clear that I am no longer happy traveling the way I do for work. And now it appears that my last shot at coming off the road for a few years is gone.
It sounds pathetic but I cried after I found out I didn't get the in office job. It was at that moment that I realized how unhappy I have become with my job. I don't even know when it happened, but it did. I used to love this job. I guess it is a sign of changing times for me. I am now focused on starting a family with my husband and traveling is not ideal for that.
I used to think I didn't want kids but now that I have this wonderful man I want several kids with him. That is the thought that crosses my mind daily, which means this job (that used to be a career for me) is no longer as important as I thought.
Well now I move on to a new phase of life. Trying to decide what type of new career I want. If I even want a career at all with kids. Wish me luck and pray that I find something to make all of us happy!
This set back prompted me to updated my resume and put it out on some online job hunting sites. Who knows if it will work but I had to take a shot. It is becoming increasingly clear that I am no longer happy traveling the way I do for work. And now it appears that my last shot at coming off the road for a few years is gone.
It sounds pathetic but I cried after I found out I didn't get the in office job. It was at that moment that I realized how unhappy I have become with my job. I don't even know when it happened, but it did. I used to love this job. I guess it is a sign of changing times for me. I am now focused on starting a family with my husband and traveling is not ideal for that.
I used to think I didn't want kids but now that I have this wonderful man I want several kids with him. That is the thought that crosses my mind daily, which means this job (that used to be a career for me) is no longer as important as I thought.
Well now I move on to a new phase of life. Trying to decide what type of new career I want. If I even want a career at all with kids. Wish me luck and pray that I find something to make all of us happy!
Wednesday, February 04, 2009
LOST!!!!
I know I am the biggest dork but I am soooooo excited that lost is on tonight. I waited and waited and waited some more for new episodes to come back on. Now I plan NOTHING on Wednesday nights. I don't even answer the phone if it rings during the show. My husband and I are such geeks. When I am out of town we will both watch the show then call each other after it is over and recap what we think certain things meant on the show. I don't know what we will do with ourselves if they ever take Lost off the air. I guess we will just start following another show......
Monday, February 02, 2009
Travel Sucks!!
So here I am sitting in yet another hotel room. Day 1 of a 5 day week out of town for work. I will say this is one of the more run down hotels I have stayed in in a while. The ONLY redeeming quality is that the hotel has a decent work out room.
As I sit here wallering in self pity (like you couldn't tell) I think about my husband and my dogs sleeping in my comfy bed at home. Oh yeah, he lets the dogs sleep with him while I am away. They are WAY WAY spoiled. Any way.... as I am thinking of them I am reminded of the days that I LOVED to travel for work and how I CHERISHED staying in hotels where I didn't have to clean up after myself or care how much energy I was using up by leaving all the lights on during the day. But times have changed, my priorities have changed. This is the first year of my marriage and I feel that I am missing out. I talk with my husband at least 3 times a day when I am away but it is not the same as being there with him. I am feeling like I have lost my way in my career. I love what I do for a living but I love my husband more. I have never thought about an alternative career. I have no idea what other jobs might interest me but what I do know is that I am no longer happy having to be away from my husband week after week. I also know that this feeling will only get worse if we have kids! I sure wish someone would come into my life and magically tell me what I should be doing. I am secretly waiting for a sign from God as to what the perfect job for me would be. I sure hope he sends that sign soon!
Alas, until then I will have to be content sitting in my hotel room watching Gossip Girl. YES..... I watch Gossip Girl and occasionally the new 90210.
As I sit here wallering in self pity (like you couldn't tell) I think about my husband and my dogs sleeping in my comfy bed at home. Oh yeah, he lets the dogs sleep with him while I am away. They are WAY WAY spoiled. Any way.... as I am thinking of them I am reminded of the days that I LOVED to travel for work and how I CHERISHED staying in hotels where I didn't have to clean up after myself or care how much energy I was using up by leaving all the lights on during the day. But times have changed, my priorities have changed. This is the first year of my marriage and I feel that I am missing out. I talk with my husband at least 3 times a day when I am away but it is not the same as being there with him. I am feeling like I have lost my way in my career. I love what I do for a living but I love my husband more. I have never thought about an alternative career. I have no idea what other jobs might interest me but what I do know is that I am no longer happy having to be away from my husband week after week. I also know that this feeling will only get worse if we have kids! I sure wish someone would come into my life and magically tell me what I should be doing. I am secretly waiting for a sign from God as to what the perfect job for me would be. I sure hope he sends that sign soon!
Alas, until then I will have to be content sitting in my hotel room watching Gossip Girl. YES..... I watch Gossip Girl and occasionally the new 90210.
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