Tuesday, May 06, 2008

Sad

I found out today that the father of a dear friend of mine passed away last night. This got me to thinking of my dad and the fact that he has been gone 12 years now. I always wonder if my dad would be proud of me now? If he would have liked the wonderful man that I am going to marry? I also wonder if my life would have been dramatically different if my dad were still around. I admit that I truly believe I am where I am in life right now because of the events that happened after my dad passed away. To get away from the sorrow and grief of losing my dad I moved to St. Louis to get a fresh start. If I had not moved here I wonder if I would have every met my fiance? Would I have even moved to St. Louis if my dad were still here?

I know it is not good to dwell on the past. But at times like this, when the loss of a dad occurs, I am reminded of my loss.....

I loved my dad dearly. We had so many great times. I am truly blessed to have had him around as long as I did. I cherish every day I had with him. However, I can tell you that the day he passed away a piece of me died as well that can never be replaced. He was a great man.

Sorry for the sad post, but they can't all be sunny! :-)

3 comments:

Janet said...

Lady I didn't know you had one of these! Glad to see it. I've been a little.... slow lately, but I'll get back at it.

Kim said...

Amy, I didn't know you still blogged! I am so glad. I am starting again. It had almost been 8 months....and over a year since I posted regularly.

Your dad, without a doubt, would be bubbling over for you. You definately make him proud!

Kim said...

Oh, yeah, if you didn't notice, I moved. I am now at helpingmeup.blogspot.com Hope to see you there!